Tuesday, April 19, 2011

Nail-Scarred Hands


The sun peers down onto my small ridge-top farm from a cloudless, blue sky . . . wrapping the afternoon in a soft blanket of April warmth. In a few weeks, we will need shade and cold glasses of iced tea to sit on our back patio: Tennessee summers are hot, hotter, and hottest. But right now, gentle sunshine coaxes everything and everyone outside . . . out from Kirkhaven’s dark garden soil . . . out from the stone and brick walls of winter’s sabbatical . . . out into the open, rolling hills of a Kirkhaven spring.

Songbirds, each with their unique melody and refrain, chatter happily from the newly leafed branches of oaks, maples, and poplars surrounding Kirkhaven’s hillside meadows.

A nippy breeze, unwilling to completely relinquish winter’s chilly bite, smells fresh and rich as it skips across the eastern garden. Lilac and lavender and rosemary. Rain-washed soil and lime-green vegetable sprouts. Like soothing aromatherapy, it tempts me to slow down, shush my soul, and simply sit awhile.

It is peaceful here.

I glance at the dirt under my fingernails . . . I am not a fan of gardening gloves . . . and my meandering thoughts are suddenly redirected to a vivid mental image: I see hands. Not my hands. Hands of Another.

I see the rough, work-worn hands of a carpenter. Young hands appearing much older than their 33 years. Scarred and calloused from years of shaping crudely sawn lumber into useful, beautiful things.

Hands brave enough to point a bold finger at institutional corruption.
Compassionate enough to touch the sick and broken with tenderness and healing.
Wise enough to show the way to Truth.
Gentle enough to hold the smiling face of a child.

Hands capable of great strength and great artistry and selfless service . . . but possessing no power to stop the lashes of the soldier’s whip.

Hands once bound by cruel ropes of injustice . . . now cut free . . . so they could be nailed to the beam of a crucifix.

Hands raised . . . willingly, in complete surrender . . . accepting the punishment for vile, dark crimes they did not commit.


Why did I think of this right now?
Such strange juxtapositions:
refreshing breezes and hot lashes of a whip . . .
lyrical bird songs and rhythmic hammer blows of spikes into wood . . .
the fresh, new life of spring and the slow, agonizing death of crucifixion . . . why?

Because the sacrifice bought the serenity.
The grace of God on this small ridge-top farm is very costly indeed.

I have quoted this passage from Dietrich Bonhoeffer’s book The Cost of Discipleship before. But it is so greatly on my heart that I want to quote it again:

Cheap grace is the deadly enemy of our Church. We are fighting today for costly grace. Cheap grace means grace sold on the market like cheapjacks’ wares. The sacraments, the forgiveness of sin, and the consolations of religion are thrown away at cut prices. Grace is represented as the Church’s inexhaustible treasury, from which she showers blessings with generous hands, without asking questions or fixing limits. Grace without price; grace without cost! The essence of grace, we suppose, is that the account has been paid in advance; and, because it has been paid, everything can be had for nothing. Since the cost was infinite, the possibilities of using and spending it are infinite...

Cheap grace means the justification of sin without the justification of the sinner. Grace alone does everything, they say, and so everything can remain as it was before. “All for sin could not atone.” . . . Well, then, let the Christian live like the rest of the world, let him model himself on the world’s standards in every sphere of life, and not presumptuously aspire to live a different life under grace from his old life under sin.... Cheap grace is the grace we bestow on ourselves...

Costly grace is the treasure hidden in the field; for the sake of it a man’ will gladly go and sell all that he has. It is the pearl of great price to buy which the merchant will sell all his goods. It is the kingly rule of Christ, for whose sake a man will pluck out the eye which causes him to stumble, it is the call of Jesus Christ at which the disciple leaves his nets and follows him.

Such grace is costly because it calls us to follow, and it is grace because it calls us to follow Jesus Christ.

It is costly because it costs a man his life, and it is grace because it gives a man the only true life.

It is costly because it condemns sin, and grace because it justifies the sinner.

Above all, it is costly because it cost God the life of his Son: “ye were bought at a price,” and what has cost God much cannot be cheap for us. Above all, it is grace because God did not reckon his Son too dear a price to pay for our life, but delivered him up for us. Costly grace is the Incarnation of God...

Grace is costly because it compels a man to submit to the yoke of Christ and follow him; it is grace because Jesus says: “My yoke is easy and my burden is light.”

This stunningly beautiful Kirkhaven afternoon leaves me awestruck.

The scented breezes . . . the lyrical birdsongs . . . the inspiring vistas . . . and the nail-scarred Hands.

The Lord . . . He is the One that amazes me.
The One who smiles at the dirt under my fingernails.
And bids me to labor with Him for a while.
And knows the cost . . . and promises the treasure is worth it all.

For the grace of God has appeared, bringing salvation to all men, instructing us to deny ungodliness and worldly desires
and to live sensibly, righteously and godly
in the present age,
looking for the blessed hope
and the appearing of the glory of our great God and Savior,
Christ Jesus,
who gave Himself for us
to redeem us from every lawless deed,
and to purify for Himself a people for His own possession,
zealous for good deeds.
These things speak and exhort and reprove with all authority.
Let no one disregard you.
Titus 2:11-15


Happy Resurrection Sunday!!


Thursday, March 17, 2011

Japan

I received a new revelation of grace this week. It has left me silent and still to the core.

I saw the satellite photos of the cataclysmic damage caused by Japan’s earthquake and tsunami. I heard the news reporters talk about long lines at gas stations and barren grocery store shelves. I listened to scientists discuss the possibility of radiation contamination from Japan’s damaged nuclear reactors. I shook my head. I prayed for Japan.

But I didn’t cry . . . until I saw the father crying.

It was a short video clip of a father and mother . . . probably about my age . . . navigating precariously through piles and piles of rubble. The father was calling out . . . desperately . . . achingly . . . with his hands cupped around his mouth. Calling for his son, hoping to find life in the midst of total devastation. As he paused to lean against the side of a wall that was still standing, he began to sob.

That’s when I cried.

The agony and deep mourning of that father’s cry was heartrending. It was so raw. So real. So inconsolable.

I immediately thought of the scriptures in Genesis chapter 3. It is the description of God walking in the garden after His relationship with His beloved children had been devastated:

They heard the sound of the Lord God walking in the garden in the cool of the day, and the man and his wife hid themselves from the presence of the Lord God among the trees of the garden. Then the Lord God called to the man, and said to him, "Where are you?"

I know I wasn’t there on that day in Genesis. I know I didn’t hear the Lord’s voice as He called out to his son. But as I pondered that short piece of scripture, I saw that Japanese man’s countenance in my heart. I don’t believe God’s question . . . “Where are you? . . . was a casual query. I believe it was a gut-wrenching cry of horrible, tragic loss. Like the sobbing cry of the searching Japanese father.

“Where . . . are . . . youuuuu??”

God knew where his children were. But the reality was too horrendous and too raw to even grasp. They were there . . . in their spiritually shaken garden home. Lost. Hidden. Buried beneath the horrendous rubble of sin and rejection that had quaked the earth to its core. Dead to Him, unless a miracle of resurrection could bring them back again. His heartrending cry, “Where are you?” was a cry of deep, fathomless mourning.

One of the most dangerous postures in American Christianity today is the trendy, light-hearted, slightly scholaresque rejection of mourning. Like macabre specters of otherworldly sprites, we dance and sing and shout the freedom of grace as if our own rescue . . . our own resurrection from the rubble of sin and death . . . was nothing more than a silly, bad dream. Deep mourning and gut-wrenching repentance are no longer welcome guests at our parties. It is a strange type of spiritual hedonism that pronounces victories, brags about prosperity, and thumbs its nose at any notion of suffering . . . as it dances upon the very rubble that others are still buried beneath.

The camp of the redeemed has much to celebrate. And much to be eternally grateful for. The right hand of the Lord has gloriously rescued us.

The sound of joyful shouting and salvation is in the tents of the righteous;
The right hand of the Lord does valiantly.
The right hand of the Lord is exalted;
Psalm 118:15-16

But it is only a CAMP . . . not a princely community of opulent palaces.
And we are only sojourners . . . not reigning sovereigns that need petting and spoiling.
And we are living among the stricken ones . . . not sheltered behind gem-studded walls.
And it is God’s Hand that is valiant and exalted . . . not ours.

A campsite of rescued sojourners. Landscaped with the tents of those who have been rescued from unspeakable devastation. Living among stricken victims: even hammering our tent pegs right beside the ancient rubble of horrible human tragedy. Celebrating with those who celebrate. Mourning with those who mourn. Suffering with those who suffer. Known by the name of the One who saved us because we talk like Him and behave like Him and love like Him. Looking to a blessed hope of eternal reconciliation with the One who has rescued us.

THAT is my revelation of grace.

I am thinking that America should get back to basic Christianity. The kind that says:

“It is sin that devastates us. But God loves us and wants a relationship with us. He is the Great Rescuer. And those who are rescued become His disciples.”

Save the fancy theologies and elaborate church growth campaigns and mystic spiritual ecstasies and exclusive clubs of BFF’s for a time that is less desperate . . . less real. Right now, we just need faithful workers with shovels and compassion. We need people who know the job is too big, but who trust a God who is more than enough.

For the wages of sin is death, but the free gift of God is eternal life in Christ Jesus our Lord.
Romans 6:23

Thursday, March 10, 2011

Please Pass the Gravy

Default modes are not necessarily a bad thing. We all have them and sometimes we need them. Things in life don’t always pan out the way we want. Sometimes our other modes . . . professional mode, parental mode, religious mode, party mode . . . become insufficient. Default modes, at least, give a person something to fall back on when all hullabaloo breaks loose.


Unless, of course, your default mode is faulty.
Then you might really be in trouble.


Fear doesn’t make a good default mode: it is too doubtful and scary.
Self-centeredness is unadvisable: there are no supportive relationships in it.
Depression and panic fail as functioning systems: you can’t move forward when you can’t move at all. Anger and bitterness close the door on any hope of peace.
Prideful arrogance turns us into untouchable despots.


Good default modes are simple.
Unembellished.
Timeless.
They are based on something outside of ourselves.
They are discernable when everything else is haywire.
And they are a place we can call home . . . we could find ourselves living there for quite a while.


I have been getting a sense lately that it is time for Christians to find their default mode. Scale things down a bit. Shake off all the fluff. Get down to brass tacks. I am really not a doom-and-gloom type of person, but I sense a storm coming. Maybe a big one. And my down-home, southern sensibility tells me that diligently preparing for a storm is better than finding yourself stranded . . . without resources . . . in the midst of it.


Here are some tips I have found helpful in building a default mode that can weather a storm. I have used it a few times. It has served me quite well.


I Don’t Know
There is no shame in not knowing something. Mark Twain says, “It ain’t what you don’t know that gets you into trouble. It’s what you know for sure that just ain’t so.” Some of life’s most poignant journeys begin by admitting that you simply don’t understand. And being humble enough to look beyond yourself for answers.


God Is Faithful
Faith in God is as necessary as breathing. And trusting His faithfulness is the most essential element in any default mode.


The 10 Commandments Are Good
There is nothing in the universe more beautiful than the character of God. Everything He stands for and everything He does flows effortlessly from His impeccable character. The 10 commandments were the first written record of God’s Heart and Soul. To stray from their Truth or to in any way demean the power of their revelation is to place your life on a dangerous tangent. Don’t worry if you find them a bit convicting. That’s a good thing. It means that your God-given conscience is still intact . . . and that the Lord can still lead you to repentance. Exodus chapter 20.


The Sermon on the Mount is Truth
It is easy to fall into self-deception when life gets difficult. And the enemy is always there to feed us mystical revelations, confirming “prophetic utterances”, and well-meaning condolences from friends to help us build a case “for” our endangered self interest and “against” those who endanger it. A “them versus us” mentality is very, very dangerous. It is self-aggrandizing in the least. Cultic at its worst. The Sermon on the Mount is a clear description of Godliness that elegantly disassembles the cult of self. You really can’t go wrong to embrace it. Matthew chapter 5.


Right and Wrong Still Exist
There will always be a bit of an outcast in the life of a disciple of Christ. Popularity must always defer to righteousness. We must never become like the world in an effort to win the world. We must never offer a false cup of justification to soothe someone’s pain when repentance is their only real hope. “Therefore, salt is good; but if even salt has become tasteless, with what will it be seasoned? It is useless either for the soil or for the manure pile; it is thrown out. He who has ears to hear, let him hear." Luke 14:34-35


Be Still
Struggling in the company of the Lord brings growth. Striving without Him brings hopelessness. It is good to shush ourselves. Be still. Listen. And wait. These things develop a life-discipline that allows us to hear and believe the One who is soooo not like us . . . but wants us to be soooo like Him.


Maybe I am wrong. Maybe the future is all grace-and-gravy for the disciples of the Lord Jesus. But it still wouldn’t hurt to take a look at our own default modes. We might be needing them . . .


Psalm 46


Saturday, February 19, 2011

Wrought

This is a picture of a bowl my husband and I bought at a pottery shop in the Smoky Mountain craft community. It was handmade by a Native American Indian. He uses red Tennessee clay and crushed Tennessee limestone to make his beautiful pieces. The simple lines and rich colors are, in my opinion, absolutely beautiful.



I love handmade things. I love the time, effort, and creative spirit that are infused in them. I have handmade gifts that I have treasured for more than 40 years.

This particular pottery piece is especially intriguing to me because it bears the unique signature of its maker. Do you see it? Look at the picture again and see if you can see it . . .

See the fingerprints? There near the bottom of the bowl’s right inside curve? I love that. The fingerprint of the maker stamped upon the creation.

I think that’s why I love nature so much. The starry canopy of Kirkhaven’s nighttime sky. The bare, winter limbs of an ancient oak tree beside my bass pond. The tiny seedlings quietly growing in my greenhouse nursery. I see the Lord’s fingerprints in all of these things. And I am continually intrigued by the story and the testimony this Fingerprint speaks.

I also think that’s why I sense such deep gratitude for the people God has brought into my life. Faithful family members who love me through every circumstance and in every season. Generous, compassionate friends who have spent years ministering the Lord’s Truth and Kindness to my heart. I experience my Lord in their words. Their arms. Their steadfast presence. God’s testimony of the power of His Son is astounding when I think of the love they have given to me.

But I feel no compunction to bragg about my home or my testimony or my family or my life circumstances.  Because the Fingerprint of the Maker completely eclipses every gift He has given. I will be eternally grateful for His mercy and grace. I will never be able to repay Him for His great love and generosity. But in all of it I see the Fingerprint of God.  For me . . . more and more . . . it is all about the Giver, not the gifts.

Everything within me explodes in praise and adoration for the One who is crafting my life.  That is where you can find me as I celebrate my 52nd year on this earth. I am in utter awe at the Fingerprint of God.

He is the Giver of all Blessing.
He is the Rescuer in every tragedy.
He is the Sustainer through every trial.
He is my philosophy.
He is my theology.
He is my reward.
And He is my inspiration.

All that I have is gloriously His.
Every person in my life . . . those who hate me and those who love me . . . those who respect me and those who pity me . . . are precious gifts in my quest to follow Him and to become more like Him.

In these autumn years of my earthly sojourn,
it is my deepest prayer and my greatest passion
that every eye . . .
my eyes and the eyes of all who observe life's happinesses and sorrows . . .
will be riveted
to neither any earthly vessel
nor any heavenly blessing,
but to the Potter Himself.

I pray that the Light of Truth will strike my fragile form in such a way that the miraculous, eternal Fingerprints of the Lord of the Universe will be visible.

When I was a child, I used to speak like a child, think like a child, reason like a child; when I became a man, I did away with childish things. For now we see in a mirror dimly, but then face to face; now I know in part, but then I will know fully just as I also have been fully known. But now faith, hope, love, abide these three; but the greatest of these is love.
1 Corinthians 13:11-13

There is so much I do not know.
I am so very fragile and earthy.

But this one thing is the sum of all my knowledge
and the goal of my every righteous pursuit
and the object of all my praise:

In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God. He was in the beginning with God. All things came into being through Him, and apart from Him nothing came into being that has come into being. In Him was life, and the life was the Light of men. The Light shines in the darkness, and the darkness did not comprehend it.

There was the true Light which, coming into the world, enlightens every man. He was in the world, and the world was made through Him, and the world did not know Him. He came to His own, and those who were His own did not receive Him. But as many as received Him, to them He gave the right to become children of God, even to those who believe in His name, who were born, not of blood nor of the will of the flesh nor of the will of man, but of God.
John 1:1-5, 9-13

"For God so loved the world,that He gave His only begotten Son, that whoever believes in Him shall not perish, but have eternal life. For God did not send the Son into the world to judge the world, but that the world might be saved through Him. He who believes in Him is not judged; he who does not believe has been judged already, because he has not believed in the name of the only begotten Son of God. This is the judgment, that the Light has come into the world, and men loved the darkness rather than the Light, for their deeds were evil. For everyone who does evil hates the Light, and does not come to the Light for fear that his deeds will be exposed. But he who practices the truth comes to the Light, so that his deeds may be manifested as having been wrought in God."
John 3:16-21

To be wrought
in God,
and by God,
is the real treasure indeed.

Wednesday, February 2, 2011

Chickens Don't Need a Shepherd


Chickens don’t need a shepherd. They need a rooster.

That’s the pearl of wisdom my husband blessed me with this morning. It is such a rich thought, that I simply had to blog about it. I suspect I will be stepping on a few toes with my ponderings, however.

Eli, the captain of my Kirkhaven Egg Brigade, is a very handsome rooster. His red comb is large and deeply serrated. His long, folded wattles dangle majestically from his chin. His bright black eyes are alert, with an intelligent but slightly suspicious gleam. He has an abundance of beautifully arching tail feathers and a respectable set of rooster spurs. And as Eli traverses the pens and fields of his ridge-top kingdom, he doesn’t just walk . . . Eli struts.

My rooster is a diligent, able provider for his flock of busily-laying hens. He is an excellent forager in the woods behind the barn and easily finds delicious caches of bugs underneath logs or on top of the compost heap. When he chortles happily about a yummy discovery, the girls always come running to his insect buffet. He even steps aside, like a perfect gentleman, so the girls can enjoy the bounty. Eli feeds his girls very well. They depend upon him, and he never lets them down.

Eli is very serious about keeping his flock safe from predators. He is a bit untrusting by nature and never hesitates to gather the girls into a safe corner or protected nook if he gets an unsettled feeling. If he sees imminent danger (a hawk in the sky or a dog on the loose), his loud squawk sends everyone into an immediate scurry for safe cover. Eli is the unchallenged authority on all-things-dangerous. I have never seen any hen hesitate to run when Eli squawks.

He is also quite determined to keep his flock peaceful and orderly. First, he expects the hens to create their own pecking order. Order is achieved when everyone knows their place and no one bucks the system. Secondly, Eli allows no excessive bickering. If squabbles erupt among any disagreeable girls, he simply runs into the midst of the flurry, pecks both offending parties, and the argument is immediately ended.

Eli is careful to keep his small flock in a tightly-knit group. All roosters know that you can’t protect what you can’t easily corral, so he doesn’t let his girls wander too much. He is, however, their “knight in shining armor” if any of them get in a bind. All they have to do is send out a panicked holler and he comes boldly running to their defense . . . wings flapping, head bobbing, spurs at the ready.

He is also is very leery of strangers.  He does, however, give people a chance to get on his “trusted” list if they behave in an acceptable way. He isn’t a mean or aggressive rooster, but he does expect a certain amount of decorum and respect. Here are Eli’s "Three Rules of Proper Etiquette:"

#1.  Respect the Rooster.  Pause before entering the coop, so he can peck your shoes, block your steps, or head-butt your leg to prove his manliness. He will appreciate your role as Farmer if you appreciate his role as Exalted Prince Over All Chickendom.

#2.  Do not make exaggerated movements or unexpected loud noises.  Nothing irritates a rooster more than trying to calm a flustered group of hens.

#3.  Bring treats.  It makes him look good in front of the girls. If he can provide delicacies like bananas, Cheerios, or some table leftovers . . . even if by your hand . . . he can keep the girls happy. And happy girls make for a comfortable coop.

The whole system is harmonious and natural. Eli and his girls are thriving in their self-regulated community. This is how healthy, well-adjusted chickens live.

But this isn’t how people should live. And it definitely isn’t how the Kingdom of God should function.

Shout joyfully to the Lord, all the earth.
Serve the Lord with gladness;
Come before Him with joyful singing.
Know that the Lord Himself is God;
It is He who has made us, and not we ourselves;
We are His people and the sheep of His pasture.
Enter His gates with thanksgiving
And His courts with praise.
Give thanks to Him, bless His name.
For the Lord is good;
His lovingkindness is everlasting
And His faithfulness to all generations.
Psalm 100:1-5

We are sheep. The Bible never refers to the people of God as chickens.  Men are sheep. Women are sheep. Children are sheep. Even church leaders are sheep.

Sheep don’t strut. They have no pecking order.  They are neither self-sufficient nor community-sufficient. And they do not need a rooster: sheep need a Shepherd.

The Lord is my shepherd,
I shall not want.
He makes me lie down in green pastures;
He leads me beside quiet waters.
He restores my soul;
He guides me in the paths of righteousness
For His name's sake.
Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death,
I fear no evil, for You are with me;
Your rod and Your staff, they comfort me.
You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies;
You have anointed my head with oil;
My cup overflows.
Surely goodness and lovingkindness will follow me all the days of my life,
And I will dwell in the house of the Lord forever.
Psalm 23

Frankly, I am astounded by what “passes” as “acceptable” Christian culture today:

“You are so freaking gorgeous”
“My husband is a stud”
“I am hot”
"You are hot."
bawdy humor
sassy personalities
sharp-witted tongues

It seems that God’s people are so busy trying to “out strut” the world that we have lost the true image of what Godliness looks like.

We are so intent upon having
the most relevant,
least restrictive,
enchantingly cleaver,
globally receptive
outward posture,

that we have completely discarded
the simple 
inward demeanor
of an obedient disciple.

What has happened to old fashioned morality?
And quiet, Godly living?

Now the deeds of the flesh are evident, which are: immorality, impurity, sensuality, idolatry, sorcery, enmities, strife, jealousy, outbursts of anger, disputes, dissensions, factions, envying, drunkenness, carousing, and things like these, of which I forewarn you, just as I have forewarned you, that those who practice such things will not inherit the kingdom of God.

But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, self-control; against such things there is no law.

Now those who belong to Christ Jesus have crucified the flesh with its passions and desires. If we live by the Spirit, let us also walk by the Spirit. Let us not become boastful, challenging one another, envying one another. Galatians 5:19-26

Let the hens squawk if they must.
Let the cocks swagger and crow.
Let passion and noise and arrogance and wit have their place in the coops of the world.

Sheep don’t need a rooster; they need a Shepherd.
They don't perch in coops, they rest in broad, green meadows.
And a strutting lamb simply is obscene.


I think we should stop being afraid or embarrased to say . . .
and to believe . . .

A quieted heart,
a simple life,
and a Godly demeanor
are good things . . .
in the green patures of the Good Shepherd.

Monday, January 10, 2011

In The Midst: Psalm 139


O LORD, You have searched me and known me.
You know when I sit down and when I rise up;
You understand my thought from afar.
You scrutinize my path and my lying down,
And are intimately acquainted with all my ways.
Even before there is a word on my tongue,
Behold, O LORD, You know it all.



You know it all.
All.




I step into the dawn of this shiny, new year full of hope. Absolutely full to overflowing. Because God knows me. And because I am in the midst of knowing Him.


I do not hold to the “clean slate, fresh-white canvas” theory of new year’s beginnings. My life has never been a mute chalk board and my future is far from a neglected piece of art. I begin the year 2011 with a deep, quiet assurance that the Lord has already gone before me. He has painted, with rich colors and bold strokes, beautiful pathways for me to travel. He has appointed stunning vistas and quiet alcoves to inspire my soul and quiet my listening heart. He has written, with His own Hand, a narrative of blessing and goodness that will follow me along the way. He has prepared noble work and challenging service for my heart and my hands to perform. And if the journey becomes rough or scary, as journeys sometimes do, His own Presence will shelter me and guide me to warmth and rest and safety.

You have enclosed me behind and before,
And laid Your hand upon me.
Such knowledge is too wonderful for me;
It is too high, I cannot attain to it.
Where can I go from Your Spirit?
Or where can I flee from Your presence?
If I ascend to heaven, You are there;
If I make my bed in Sheol, behold, You are there.
If I take the wings of the dawn,
If I dwell in the remotest part of the sea,
Even there Your hand will lead me,
And Your right hand will lay hold of me.
If I say, "Surely the darkness will overwhelm me,
And the light around me will be night,"
Even the darkness is not dark to You,
And the night is as bright as the day.
Darkness and light are alike to You.


God knows me more than I know myself. And He loves me more than I could ever love anything or anyone.


For You formed my inward parts;
You wove me in my mother's womb.
I will give thanks to You, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
Wonderful are Your works,
And my soul knows it very well.
My frame was not hidden from You,
When I was made in secret,
And skillfully wrought in the depths of the earth;
Your eyes have seen my unformed substance;
And in Your book were all written
The days that were ordained for me,
When as yet there was not one of them.
How precious also are Your thoughts to me, O God!
How vast is the sum of them!
If I should count them, they would outnumber the sand.
When I awake, I am still with You.


I can’t tell you what is going to happen in politics this year. I cannot prophecy blessings or disasters or revivals or judgments or economic upheaval or miraculous sustenance upon the people of God or upon the lands in which they dwell. I truly have no idea how this new year will unfold on the world stage.


I don’t even know where my personal journey will take me.


But I do know this one thing. Tomorrow morning, when the winter sun rises over Kirkhaven’s snow-covered brae, God will be there when I awake. His path will be prepared for me to travel. His fellowship will saturate the very air I breathe.


Search me, O God, and know my heart;
Try me and know my anxious thoughts;
And see if there be any hurtful way in me,
And lead me in the everlasting way.




There is truly nothing more beautiful than to be known by God.
And to be in the midst of knowing Him.

If you have a moment, stay with me just a bit longer and listen to the next song . . . and worship with me . . .

Friday, December 24, 2010

I Believe in Christmas

Who knew? I mean, really, who totally saw this coming??

A virgin married to a simple carpenter.
A nondescript town full of tired travelers . . . who were also pretty fed up with their government.
A stable.
A manger of straw.

Who really expected that?

I suppose Mary and Joseph, devout Jews, had read the ancient predictions of the prophets:
He would be born of a virgin.
He would be born in Bethlehem.
They may have understood in their hearts the magnitude of this Holy Night.

The magi seemed to have an inkling that something momentous was at hand. Their studies of astronomy led them to follow the strange star.

The shepherds on the Bethlehem hillside, tending their flock of sacrificial Passover sheep, were astounded . . . perhaps terrified . . . by the appearance of angels in the night sky. But they willingly obeyed the heavenly command to visit the stable. And they bowed in reverence before their tiny, swaddled king.

Even King Herod believed that a royal birth occurred. He killed thousands of Hebrew infants and toddlers to try to prevent this King from taking His throne.

I guess mankind should have completely expected the humble entrance of their Messiah King. 20-20 hindsight makes it clear that all the signs were there. Ancient prophecies were perfectly fulfilled. Supernatural signs announced His advent. The gates of hell mobilized to prevent His reign.

But I am thinking that not much has changed in more than 2,000 years. God still comes quietly and humbly and, often, secretly. He still places His presence in the hands of every-day people. He still performs miracles and signs and wonders that pretty much go unacknowledged and unappreciated. And the gates of hell still mobilize to prevent His reign in the lives and hearts of mankind.

And we, somehow, still often manage to miss it.

Or misunderstand it.
Or twist it to fit our own agendas and our own satisfaction and our own benefit.
Or ignore it all together.
Or even join the forces of hell to extinguish its light on the earth.

My hope and my prayer this Christmas Eve, is that you . . . that we . . . will not miss Him this year.

May we see Him . . .
even if His coming it is very humble . . .
even if He contradicts our preconceived ideas . . .
even if He interrupts our well-intentioned plans . . .
even if He costs us dearly . . .
even if His benefits don’t seem lofty and grand enough . . .
even if the gates of hell are aligned in battle against Him.

May we live this next year in awe of our Messiah’s intimacy instead of boasting of His favor.
And may be become more like Him in every way.

Even if that means our lives are hidden in Him.
Even if that means we will carry a cross.


"If anyone wishes to come after Me,
 he must deny himself,
and take up his cross and follow Me.
 For whoever wishes to save his life will lose it;
but whoever loses his life for My sake will find it.
For what will it profit a man if he gains the whole world
and forfeits his soul?
Or what will a man give in exchange for his soul?"
Matthew 16:24-26


Belief is not an intellectual act; belief is a moral act whereby I deliberately commit myself.
—My Utmost For His Highest Oswald Chambers

I believe in Christmas.
Do you?